Angel Numbers

I’ve been having a lot of angel numbers appear in my life. 1010. 555. 333. 1212. 444. 1111. A lot of cool phenomenon I cannot ignore.

Here’s the articles and signs showing up.

And here’s my responses to them. Some of them funny. Some of them serious. Some of them are snarky with attitude. Trigger warning, I do curse in this. If it’s not your forte, it’s not the article for you.

I saw 333 before my baby cousin was born on August 10th, 2021..My close friend had her kid on August 8th, 2021. Another close friend (my love Amelia!) had her kid on August 22nd, 2021 and I saw a hella lot of angel numbers. According to Ryan Hart, this meant that a baby was going to be born.

111 (Version from email)


1 is the symbol of destiny. When you see 111, it can signify that you’re on the right path, and that something is meant for you. Your guides and the Universe are sending you a message that someone or something will help you achieve your dreams and goals.

Say you’ve just left a job interview, and you see “111” on a billboard right outside. The Universe is telling you that you’re on the right path… whatever that means to you in the moment.

Ok, so me opening up my trap standing up for what I believe in is justified. Appreciate this.


1. God Will Heal Your Broken Heart

(STOP REVEALING MY SECRETS. Thank you. Moving forward, my animals will be my everything. I got a goat and chicken entanglement going on, and it’s going great.)

Seeing 222 is a message about love. This could be a sign that you’ve had your heart broken in the past or currently.

It’s broken now. And yes. I will never let any guy get close to me again like that. Time and time again, (ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW) I’m being constantly reminded of what trusting the wrong people can do and the repercussions of it. I never want to feel the pain of trusting someone completely. It was a lot to deal with and I’m way too committed to being successful (even if it means less personal recognition) to let anyone get in my way.

*****literally being vulnerable and trusting people have led me to financial ruin. To the point where I couldn't get a house, car, credit card. It’s embarrassing and shameful. I do trust eventually, but it takes me time due to my experiences. And many times, it came from people that said they would always be there and that I could trust them. And usually people sided with everyone else except me.

My guard is up. This bitch made sure I made my fortress bullet proof. Continue.

Because I do not care to enlarge my menagerie of pets, and I find the animal man less docile than a dog, less affectionate than a cat, and less amusing than a monkey., Linda Caroll, An 1889 Magazine Asked Single Women Why They Aren’t Married and Ouch, The Replies (When women from 1889 understand you more than the 2021 ones do. Savage. If we can make a time machine I’d love to meet these women for reals).

The pain you felt after a breakup was so bad that now you are more protective of who you let into your heart.

YES. DAMN IT. Thank you for understanding. It wasn’t just a breakup. I had to deal with one thing after the other with no one around. Survived it on my own, which is why I’m cool with being on my own. But continue.

When around your friends or family you are very social, easy to talk to, and extroverted. Yet, other times you are reserved, quiet, and tired.

Very quiet, reserved, and tired to the point where if I’m not talking, I get annoyed with the “ARE YOU OK questions?” I have a quiet, laid back side, don’t mind me. People forget that silence is golden.

When you meet someone new it takes time before they become part of your “inner circle” of friends. They need to earn your trust first. You are selective of who gets to know the “real” you.

PREACH. Yes. Yes. I admit I make my inner circle hard to get into.

Now I do have an outer circle. I hang out, but I don’t let them get too close until I’m sure I can trust them. Usually I see these people once a year. I can like you personally, but trust is a different level.

The same can be said for your romantic relationships. Your heart has been broken too many times and you cannot bear to think about going through another painful breakup.


(Another deeply painful aspect that I would like to bring up is watching friends end their lives over a breakup. I don’t think some people out here understand how painful that can be….When I was in school (like high school), I was like why can’t people just get over it; after experiencing it first hand I get how devastating it can be.)

As a Gemini this is true, if I open up and get into a long term serious relationship, just for it to end, damn the shit will tear my ass up to lose someone that meant that much to me. And normally yes, I DO keep my cool and not show how devastated my insides are. After that, I usually keep my distance for a long while. I’m talking years and years.

Although you might not realize it yet, your guardian angel has been sent down to protect you and guide you in a new direction.

Clarence from It’s A Wonderful Life? Or a family member or friend? If Chief Bromden is available, I’ll take him too. Or Mansa Musa I.

God made a promise to us long ago, called a covenant, that he would not harm us. Seeing 222 is a clear sign that God is about to heal your broken heart. He wants you to open your heart to love and shine your light for others.

Nah, the covenant broke when I turned 18. Ok, I’ll show love to the raccoons that I saw last night. They were kinda cute.

If you are in a relationship, seeing 222 could be a sign of renewed love. You are about to experience a burst of new energy and deep love for your partner.

The fuck you will. I’m colder than a witch’s titty in a brass bra. I rather take rawhide from my ass and shove it down my throat before going down that path. My goat and chicken is all the love I need right now. Continue. Energy I’m down with.

Simply put, the number 222 is a message from your guardian angel to open up your heart.


Everyone has the right to be stupid (sometimes at least). Angels? loves, when you speak soulmate or future husband, you are suggesting I abuse the privilege. I’m going to stop while I’m ahead.

Angel number 222 is also very spiritually symbolic if you are single or divorced. God is sending you a message that he is about to heal your broken heart. He will bless you with an abundance of love and hope.

You are loved. Isn’t that encouraging?

I’m sure it is, if it was actually a thing. Continue.

The fact that you have been seeing 222 tells me much about what you are going through in your relationships.

Angel number 222 is a clear sign that your life is about to change and God will make everything right again. There is hope for your future.

Remember that it does not bring glory to God when you build walls around yourself. Shine your light for others and you will attract an abundance of love into your life.

Fortress Alesha is gonna pretend I didn’t see this. Abundance of animals I’m totally down with 24/7.

2. You Will Find Your Soulmate

(We are not going to start this again. No.)

The number 2 is very symbolic of love and unity in the bible. Genesis 2:24 says a man and woman will be joined together in marriage and become one flesh.

No, no. I have an article on why I’m not getting married. Please read the shit.

P.S. There’s no we in fries. I’ve decided to close the book on marriage, but I am my goat and chicken’s bitch.

If you are worried that you will never meet the person you were destined to be with, I have good news. At this very moment God is working to bring your soulmate into your life.

I did meet a goat and chicken that is all I need.

Be aware that your soulmate may not be the person you have been dreaming or thinking about. Your guardian angel knows exactly who you are meant to be with and they are slowly guiding them toward you, whether you realize it or not.

If you keep saying this, I will relocate to a woody area out west where no one will be able to find me for months like my grandpa did. I will put my phone on airplane mode, only checking in with people I trust. Stop. Or do a multiple amount of 30 day meditations. Do not play with me. I’m as stubborn as they come. I have a disappearing act you gotta see to believe.

The next time you see angel number 222, pay close attention to who is around you. This could be an urgent message that your soulmate is near.

Because you are always thinking about how you can help the people around you. You feel like you give, give, give, while others just take, take, take.

Yes. This is very true.

You give so much to help your family, friends, community, or even strangers without expecting anything in return. But very few people recognize that you might need help sometimes, too.

If I can do it, I will and I don’t look for anything in return, as long as they are happy ❤. That’s accurate. It’s a two way street. They are doing their thing, and living life, but I’m very good at hiding things also. Quite a few don’t care to recognize. I’m scared to death about this ear thing, I haven’t been able to hear normally since June. There’s other pressing health issues but I can’t even talk about those publicly (mainly a picking a surgery date now?!?!). My uncle’s ashes are at home, mom called me about it and I’m afraid to go back to the house. I always hear about things back home, regardless if I want to or not.

There’s times when I wanted to say hey, maybe I can use some help in this; historically, asking for help made the situations a lot worst or devastating. Either they made fun of me or made me feel like I wasn’t worth helping or I was too much. #TeamClamUp

Recently you might have gone through a tough time and needed help, but nobody was there to lend a hand.

Yes. yes yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. As I write this it’s actually the case, but continue. I’ve been so used to handling things on my own for years that it’s second nature. Continue.

When this happened it can be easy to feel discouraged about whether you are on the right path.

Want to hear some good news? Angel number 222 is a message of hope.

Seeing 222 is a message from your guardian angel that God notices your generosity.

Cool. I don’t expect or look for personal recognition though.

If you are feeling down, remember that when you see angel number 222 it’s a sign that you are on the right path.

For real tho, if you are gonna send a lawsuit like you did in years past, or when I was sick back in 2016, make sure you give me the resources to get the 10 grand to defend myself. Medical bills, lawyers, and time off work is costly homie. And don’t forget out of state costs.

Continue to demonstrate God’s character for others and you will be rewarded for your faith.

Can I demonstrate with animals instead? The 2 legged ones are too much trouble. I will take money from my own resources to feed as many animals as I can.

Version I got from email.


Normally, we think of 2 as meaning balance. But in numerology, these numbers actually mean the opposite. When you see 222, you’re out of balance. Maybe you’re working too much, or too little. Maybe you’re not spending enough time with your family and friends.

Don’t take seeing this symbol as a terrible thing. Instead, use it to guide you in learning how to put yourself and your life back into balance, in order to raise your vibration and live the best life possible.

Working too much? I add my two cents about this below. No one is gonna take care of me but me. See my snarky response to this below….


The meaning of this powerful divine number 333 is to let go of past regrets, failures and guilt feelings.

Hang on. Honest question tho. What if something /a mistake you did in your past followed you for the rest of your life? I notice a lot of these angel messages say move on from the past, but if the a past mistake keeps/kept you from buying a house, getting credit cards, getting a car, affording the basic necessities, and having the basic human dignity to do daily tasks, how can you realistically forget your past when you are constantly reminded of how much of a failure/mistake you made (just being honest)? In heaven and different realms it might work different, but down here you don’t pay something, there’s this thing called bad credit, creditors, lawsuits, and IRS. (And the IRS are nobody to f**** with, they will garnish your paycheck.). More details below, but continue.

Forgive yourself completely for any wrongdoing, and forgive others who have hurt or offended you.

I give people more chances than they deserve, but once I’m done, I’m done. My version of forgiveness. I’ve said this multiple times in multiple articles. I do not trip over the small things, because we all make mistakes and deserve grace. But if someone says they are sorry but keep displaying the same toxic behaviors, or go out of their way to cause me harm or pain; this is where forgiveness will be harder for me to come by. Instead of sticking around trying to figure out if they are truly sorry or not, I wish them well but keep my distance. I will not be a doormat for anyone. Some of these people did intent harm, and they did the shit on purpose just to see how much I could take. Everyone down here is not good and pure. No, I don’t think about the people who wronged me every day, but at the same time I’m not going to share my secrets with people displaying toxic behaviors. Just take my word for it for shit’s sake.

Even though you have not been given the opportunities you deserve.

Could you announce this on the loud speakers? Thanks for this.

Sorry angels, there’s people that do intend harm.

Let me see here. Here’s my 2 cents angels.

I realize now that most of my experiences in school came from people thinking they were smarter and superior by default. Instead of getting to know me for me, they had an idea of what they thought I should be based on stereotypes and race. While some of my white sisters (and relatives for that matter) from another mother have been the best blessings in my life and I’m lucky to have them; others have ignored me, only wanted to be my friend when it was convenient or maintain an image. I have clearly stated in many of my articles at this point that I pick friends based on content of character, and I also pick friends on the same wavelength and energy. I have so many friends from so many walks of life, experiences and backgrounds.

It’s not everyone, clearly, but it’s a pattern that I subconsciously noticed in Alpha Phi Omega (an example I keep bringing up because it’s a great learning lesson), an organization I was in, which I clearly dropped. And other spaces. They assumed that I couldn’t be president because of my skin color (found this out later down the road and people just plain told me this, and at first I didn’t want to believe it, but the evidence was hard to ignore). There was times when I was not being listened to, and they definitely listened to my white male counterpart (major conscious bias).I can tell I wasn’t given the same benefit of the doubt like my other white peers. You gotta be better. Racial biases was at play, they were more comfortable with voting in another white person. You still get the doubts. There are always gonna be people, because of what you look like and what your skin color is, that will question your qualifications.

Unfortunately, too many people have a perception that black, Asian, Hispanic people, can’t be in key leadership positions just because you’re black, Asian, Hispanic, or another race that’s non white. They just assume that it’s always gonna be somebody else.

Somebody would come out to meet and I wasn’t the person that they walked up to. Even people in my own organization(s) went to my white male counterpart first. I EVEN NOTICE THIS BIAS BEHAVIOR IN CURRENT ORGANIZATIONS I’M IN. I was being also being condescended to even by people, my own former brothers/people who I was in organizations with who supposedly know me whenever a new topic is being discussed. And way too often, I was also being treated dumb by people dumber than me. (Yes if any of you happen to be reading this, too many of you dummies went along to get along, so I’m calling you out because it’s all stupid. It’s all stupid to assume that people can’t do something because of their skin color. It’s all about the reactions that are beyond your control, imagine people thinking that your stupid, incompetent or physically weaker by default and making a judgment call without getting to know you as a human being?).

No matter how much effort and energy I put into APO and other organizations, it was never enough. Nothing I did would ever be enough, because they perceived less from me because I was black. Awards and recognition mean nothing if my own brothers kept going behind my back. Loyalty and trust mean more to me than a service award. Working twice as hard to prove their expectations and perceptions of black people was wrong didn’t do it because no matter what I did. Throughout my time in Alpha Phi Omega and even in my past churches, I realized that even if I did do things error free, someone would have found something. I would and will never get the same benefit of the doubt as my white friends if they get in trouble.

Unwritten rules:

  • Don’t be an angry black woman.
  • Don’t be too loud or obnoxious.
  • Don’t be scary or threatening.
  • Speaking your mind is dangerous. You’re supposed to be quiet and go along to get along. (If you get out of your place, we will do things like sue you or try to make life hard for you. People will believe our word over yours, because your black and you don’t matter anyways. Remember, you’re beneath everyone.)
  • You gotta be better (even though you will get every stone thrown at you no matter how good you do things).
  • Black lives only matter if you stay in your place and don’t say anything. You speak out or try to stay something? Well then.
  • When you’re right no one remembers. When you’re wrong, no one forgets.

Why expose something I deal with with people who don’t care? (Because I know if they care, I own Medium. And I’m president of the United States. In other words, they never cared AND they don’t.)

It’s a lifetime of frustration and to this day I’m keeping the conversation going about race relations in the United States as much as possible. Angels, I will face the issues until the day I die due to some mean mean people on earth. To keep having to make things a race issue is unfortunate (because I don’t like to keep pulling the race card, or playing victim) but it is what it is. I address racism when I have to. This is the state of affairs of the world I live in. I may have kept my cool during my time in APO because I didn’t want to believe that a lot of people I cared about thought less of me at the subconscious level, but I will be vocal about what happened to me there and in other spaces as much as possible to help others.

It was exhausting putting that much effort into something to realize that a lot people in it subconsciously saw me as less than by default. Or would exclude me out of a friend group based on skin color. Being vulnerable and putting my heart into something there led to painful results. If I appear to be a little bit more reserved in putting my all into something or if it appears I’m being careful with my heart, experiences like this is why.

To finish this off, angels, I’m used to people believing everyone else but me. I’m used to people lying on me and people siding with other people but me. Being the only child growing up, I’ve been used to not getting the benefit of the doubt and dealing with things on my own. Being a black person in the United States, you have to almost expect a white person’s (and everyone else’s word for that matter) word to be believed over yours. And your life doesn’t matter and isn’t valued. People will lie and talk about me behind my back until the day I die. The misinformation seems unfair, but I stay above it and trust that the truth will come out. And get you your own people like Acshettle and Steve Bello.

How my white privilege had protected me from having to even be aware of what it might mean to navigate the world as a Black, Indigenous and Person of Color. How clear cut my white fragility was, and how resistant I was to engage in any real conversation about the implications of racism, simply because it didn’t overtly affect me. How shallow my understanding was (and still is!) of colonization, oppression, discrimination, neglect, and marginalization at the systemic level. How I’ve maintained and upheld white supremacy through my complicit allegiance to white privilege. Most importantly, for me though, is the unintentional harm I have caused to Black, Indigenous and People of Color, specifically to people I love, through racial aggressions I didn’t even realize I’ve spent my whole life reinforcing.-Cynthia Malouf, No Whites Allowed

There’s some people like Cynthia that really try.

I understand now why so many people didn’t want to join APO and other orgs at the time when I reached out. Too many times, the excluding nature of too many people who they perceive are different/better than them can turn people away.

Angels, because of these behaviors and all the bad experiences in school, I will not touch an 9 to 5er with a 1000 foot pole. I can side step any and all potential racism, sexism, office politics, manipulation tactics, silent treatments, bullying, lawsuits, and bullshit. Entrepreneurship is not for the faint of heart, but I rather do that then be in a rat race, putting my fate in someone else’s hands (and trusting other people outside myself has always led to horrible consequences).

It can be frustrating when big opportunities slip away, not because you were not qualified, but because the world told you “no.” Now you might be wondering if you missed your one shot at success.

Accurate. Accurate.

It’s not a secret that if you had been given the chance you could have been a doctor, lawyer, or professor.

Maybe a lawyer. I could use the skills to hang the student loan people to dry in my own ways, but continue. (It’s amazing how much you can protect yourself when you know the law or have family and friends that know the law.). I’m thinking hermit nowadays. See the first episode of Dragon Ball if you need an idea of what I’m talking about.

However, you’ve had to deal with more obstacles and hardships over the last few years than most people have to overcome in their entire lives.

I don’t want to be reminded of that last part.

You are about to be blessed with more resources, time, and energy then you can imagine.

Seeing 333 is a sign that a baby is about to be born or was recently born.

I’ve had a lot of people in my life expecting. (As I stated above also)

Yes, I totally distanced myself from the Catholics.

Lately you have been seeking God’s guidance or have been questioning your faith. Angel number 333 is a sign that you are about to have a religious or spiritual experience.

Yes, I totally distanced myself from the Catholics.

Yes, I totally distanced myself from the Catholics. (Repeated in the spirit of 333)

Recently, you’ve been having a mix of happy and unhappy moods. This has led you to question whether you made the right decision or took the wrong path in life.

You’re talking too much.

I don’t want the few people who care about me to worry. You are putting too much of my business in the street.

Maybe you stumbled upon a childhood toy or book that reminded you of a time when life was easier and you had more hope about the future.

If I want to go back to my childhood, I go play video games and pretend it’s 1999–2001.

God hears your prayers, but he may not answer them in the way you had predicted.

I sometimes wonder if he answers them at all, but continue.

Angel number 333 is a message from your angels that you are going to have someone show up in your life who is going to help you grow spiritually and emotionally. They will be someone who is going to be able to see your inner beauty and help you understand yourself on a deeper level. Let the new love in. Angel number 333 is a message from your angels that you are going to have someone show up in your life who is going to help you grow spiritually and emotionally.

I hope it’s a cousin or close friend, I’ll let love in then.

Watch carefully for a driver in a green car as they might lead you to another surprising revelation about God’s grace.

If you see a green car, let me know lol.

*Saw a green car with black and white checkered flags on 9/4/2021.

You may also experience some external support and assistance from someone you least expect it from.

Again, I hope it’s a cousin.

333 (Version From Email)

The triangle is the strongest shape in the Universe. It’s why we so often see ancient symbols of power and energetic strength in the shape of pyramids, and why utilizing pyramids in your everyday life is so important.

This angel number signifies your highest potential, and your ability to truly step into your strength.


444 (Version From Email)

4 is also a symbol of balance, or even luck. But instead of signifying lack the way 222 does, 444 tells you that you are balanced and on the right path. If you’re seeing this number, it’s a sign of positivity.

It can also be important if you feel as if you’ve been fighting against something, or have been unsure if you’re doing the right thing and truly following your gut instinct. Seeing this symbol means that you’re going to ascend to a higher level soon.

Yes. I’ve been fighting a lot, especially health issues! Thanks! I’ve been more vocal about everything, including my health, and I won’t be silenced. Due to this more vocal side, some have suggested I should run for politics.

If you are already going through a big change in your career or relationships, this is a sign that God is guiding you in a new direction.

When you start seeing 4:44 on the clock, start looking for clues as to what is about to change in your life. Do not hold onto your current ways too tightly. God is trying to gently show you the correct path.

Be open to change and embrace the new challenge.

As long as the roads don’t lead to unwanted pregnancies and kids, we are good. I told you for the 150th time, I don’t want kids. Or a life that would slow me down, be predictable, boring and full of routine. If the change involves change of scenery, totally game 24/7.

2. Justice Will Be Served

God created the stars and the moon as a symbol of truth. The light from Heaven is always constant and shines brightly upon us. Angel number 444 is a message about honesty and justice.

Recently, someone tried to take advantage of you. You may have lost money or status from the actions of someone close to you.

It’s happened a lot in recent years, but continue.

Sadly, the person that wronged you might think they will get away with it, but God is watching. Justice will be served to those that try to take anything from you.

You have missed many opportunities to make more money or advance your career because you are unwilling to be dishonest. You have a strong sense of integrity and can tell when someone is not telling the truth.

Yep. Preach. Kudos to all those who robs banks and gets away with it (jk jk jk). Or if a money truck opens up on the high way and you happen to grab a bag or two. Run Johnny run!

When you see people with bigger homes or newer cars, you wonder if you made the right decisions in life. You might struggle with this problem often.

Nope, told you, I don’t care about who has more than me. The more I think about it, the more I feel like being a hermit or a monk in the mountains is the life for me. I don’t care or seek out personal recognition.

I’m not gonna go out my way to mess you up, spread a nasty rumor about you because you have things I don’t. I don’t hate on people more successful than me. I learn from them. I’ve learned just because you see the good in others doesn’t mean they see the good in you (obvs). And wait, I’ve had way too many people do cruel things to see how much suffering you go through on purpose. Or try to turn people away from you to silence you because you think differently than me. If I ever had a problem, I would come talk to you about it. They purposely went out of their way to destroy my life, to the point where l really rather be a lone wolf.

If you see 444 frequently, this is a reminder that God will make all things right in Heaven.

3. You Have a Divine Power

Seeing 444 is a sign that you are gifted with a divine power from God. During your prayers God shares with you moments from the future. You often keep these revelations to yourself but are not surprised when they actually happen.

I’ve had premonitions for years. I never did tell my Catholic faith about it because they, like many organized religions, shoot down things they don’t understand. Definitely gonna tap into my psychic abilities more just like Ness, and due to people telling me I was ahead of my time and able to see the bigger picture, I was misunderstood.

I was also told (I mention this other places too), that I’m an reincarnated being…I don’t think my psychic abilities are strong like other Mediums (I can’t and don’t want to communicate with people who passed, because that scares even me.) but I have had visions, and lived them out a short time later….it’s almost like seeing into the future.

Angel number 444 is a message from God about what is about to happen next. Open your eyes and you will see what God has planned.

You often use this divine power to read body language or hear what people are thinking. You have an incredible ability to understand people that you meet for the first time.

I do. But I usually get to know them before jumping to conclusions still. I call it my sixth sense.

You are rarely fooled by the fake facade some people put on. God has given you the ability to read their true character almost instantly. Some people are easily tricked into believing these lies, but not you.

I see right through the social media posts. This is why I don’t want what others have, including a husband and kids. Just because they are happy doesn’t mean I would be. I don’t want to do things because others are doing it, or if it’s the predestined path for me. Continue.

After you see 444, be sure to thank God for the gifts he has given you.


I’ve been having 555 appear to me, the most recent on a bank receipt.

You are very critical of your mistakes.

I like making mistakes generally.


Especially ones that are financial and it’s gotten so bad that a bank blacklisted me and will not let me re-open my account, even though the tellers admitted that they are coming down too hard on me. An hacker hacked my account, used my IP address and got my code. I had this bank account for years, and it got hacked. And now I’m seen as a bad customer. Do you really think I’m going to vulnerable that easily anymore? I’m definitely more guarded and careful of who I trust nowadays.

I also don’t mind admitting when I’m wrong, like the times I thought positive about relationships and marriage…..Angels, loves, we discussed this multiple times throughout this article. I can’t be held responsible for what my face does when you talk soulmates. I haven’t always been this cold and sarcastic, it’s taken a while.

This sign lets you know that whatever may come, you can make it through it.

Reminder: Please make sure sales are good in my future businesses so I can keep my lawyers on retainer. In some instances back in 2015, I only had a 24 hour notice. Some people didn’t like the fact our business was doing well at the time….

Remember that everything happens for a reason and nothing happens by chance. Even though the reason/s for the changes may not be clear at this point in time, trust that all will fall into place for you.

Although there will be challenges along the way, remember that you are all on the same team. The more people you can get involved in your mission in life — the better!

(I still prefer rolling solo angels).

Seeing 555 means that your guardian angel is trying to help you find peace in your life. You have been so busy lately and your mind has been racing with thoughts of work, family and daily tasks. If this keeps up then you won’t be able to focus on what is really important in life — God and his plan for you.

Snarky attitude reply: So are you saying sit on my butt and money will fall out the sky? The last few times I trusted someone outside myself it landed me in financial ruin. Costly costly costly. Yes, I will make time for family and friends after the bills are paid. For the people that whine and complain claiming they don’t see me much, are they going to provide me a couch to sleep on if I needed if I became homeless, because I decided to stop work and f*** around with them? There’s a few more income streams and goals I like to hit, and when that happens I’ll slow down. Until then no. Nurture friendships? Sure. Depend on them? Fuck no.

I’ve been booking more auditions now than I have in my life and I have no plans on stopping. And even if I didn’t get the part, I have so many great relationships with casting directors that we know each other on a name basis now. Fame is not the end goal (if it happens, fine). Being wealthy in peace is. Gonna retire with my refrigerator in Ecuador.

You think often about this person and worry about what might happen next. You wish there was more you could do to help.

Your guardian angel wants you to know that they are watching over this person who is suffering from disease or sickness. Continue saying healing prayers for those that are sick and wait for God to work his miracles.

Yes, there’s people in my life that’s sick and I wish I could do more to help.

On another page, 555,

This change in your life could be a huge change that is very obvious to you. It could also be a series of smaller events that add up to something big.
You may not even realise that the changes are happening until you look back and see the progress you’ve made.

Never overlook even the smallest details. Challenges in life come in all kinds of shapes and sizes. Think of it like the butterfly effect, which says that one small change can lead to a huge shift in time. You may not always be able to see where you are headed, but you are definitely moving towards something.

There are some things in life that it feels like you’ve waited forever to get. This angel number sends a message that you won’t be waiting much longer.
Your fates and spirit have come together to push you into the new circumstances or role that you have been waiting for. All you need to do is overcome your old worries and fears.

Forever, fuck yes. There’s normal milestones that I didn’t get to experience at certain ages due to being vulnerable to untrustworthy people and an idiot. And trusting the wrong people financially and listening to the wrong advice. It’s shameful and pathetic, if I say anymore it will be straight embarrassing. It secretly feels awful. But continue.

Be aware these changes are happening to bring you closer to your divine purpose as Angel knows you are ready to take the leap of faith.

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Seeing 555 may also be a warning to stop and reconsider what you are doing. It may be time to take a break from your activities, focus on the present, and meditate on the things that need your attention.

In spiritual traditions, this number means activation of psychic senses or clairvoyance. You’re able to see beyond the physical realms and perceive the true nature of your reality.

Seeing 555 could mean you’re being called to help someone in need or assist them in achieving their goals as a team. The universe is giving you an invitation to make it happen.

I’ve been told that I’m an empath (mentioned above also), and this isn’t the first reading where I heard that I may be able to tap into other realms and realities. All my life, I was told that I was ahead of my time, and I’m a being that’s reincarnated. “Due to your wisdom, you definitely have lived multiple lives in multiple lifetimes. Apparently I’ve lived in several different realms and dimensions. Good to know. (Won’t be bringing this up in a mass if I decide to go back to the Catholic church, they are quick to shoot down things that are different from what they learned, or closed minded to something without trying it first. Too many are stuck in their same ways of thinking. Mediation and yoga is not devil worship, infact it’s been more helpful to me than a lot people in the Catholic church, how you like me now?).

People just don’t respect when you say you ride solo.

These numbers are commonly seen in dreams about family reunions or gatherings with friends where everyone is joyful and healthy. They can also signify a period of growth is ahead for you where new acquaintances will soon enter your life who will have a positive impact on you for years to come.

I did have a dream or two where I opened up to a couple of 3rd, 2nd cousins and we grew closer as a result of it. I somehow feel like these premonitions are gonna happen a lot sooner than I think. (Mentioned premonitions above also).

Angel number 555 is a sign that you’ve been thinking about the past and wondering whether you made the right decisions.

You often consider what your life might be like if you had chosen a different career or married someone else. Although you can’t change the past, you have a feeling that you wandered off your predestined path without realizing it. Now it’s too late to go back and change.

Marrying someone. I told you for the 200th time, no.

Secret confession: I do sometimes wish I avoided signing up for college, I’m trying VERY HARD not to say regret, but I’m knocking on that door. The repercussions, mental anguish, financial damage, harassment, fall from grace, lawsuits in 2015, humiliations, student loans, racism to me is not worth it. I saw a evil side to people on my campus; I watched people do cruel things to people to set them up to fail. I do love my friends I met, maybe I could have just moved into an apartment on campus, and met people that way, like a handful of people I knew did. Shit. They all know the people I’m currently close with, and they got the college experience without all the shit and student loans. I’ve could have met all the people I still know now without all the damn drama and embarrassment, holy shit. We all ran in the same dorms, food courts, friend circles, parties, clubs and bars. They borrowed friends ids' and experienced the college life without the headaches. To endure a lifetime trauma and damage, and not be able to financially do things for years because I liked a school at 8, and decided I wanted to go there at 13, worked for 18 years of my life to get to a place and realize it’s a slaughterhouse, and torture chamber of yourself esteem and dreams, yeah I’m having thoughts. I’m just now getting to a descent place again with a few loose ends to tighten up. And for the 300th time, I’M NOT GETTING MARRIED at this time if ever. Good lord, why do people act like being alone is a bad thing? And I don’t want to be a mom either. Team Aunty!

Let me put it this way. I made a mistake at 18 (signing up for college), believing the information at the time that it was going to make my life better, only to end up in an never ending nightmare of looking over my shoulder for years. Right now I’m convinced this is hell and I’m working my way to heaven. If I find heaven on earth I’ll let you know. It’s bothersome to me how everyone growing up told me this would make my life better, but college is making my life worst, and everyday, I’m reminded of it.

(If you are reading this and you don’t think you can pay for college, and are thinking about not going to school like a lot of my entrepreneurial circles have and considering taking a different route. I ask you to consider your options, and don’t let your family, friends or peer pressure get the best of you, easier said than done I know. Those student loan people show no mercy and can ruin your finances for years and potentially for life. Even when I was sick in the hospital with a cancer scare, they are diabolical. If you do go to college, I hope it works out for you, and I hope you can pay. I take a shot every time a friend pays off/dodges their student loans by moving out the country because those mfs are vicious. )

What if something /a mistake you did in your past follows you for the rest of your life? I notice a lot of these angel messages say move on from the past, but if the past keeps/kept you from buying a house, getting credit cards, getting a car, affording the basic necessities, and having the basic human dignity to do daily tasks, how can you realistically forget your past when you are constantly reminded of how much of a failure/mistake you made (just being honest)? Instead of college making me feel successful it had the opposite effect, it make me feel like a failure. College made me rethink what success really looks like and question everything.

In heaven and different realms it might work different, but down here you don’t pay something, there’s this thing call bad credit, creditors, lawsuits, and IRS. (And the IRS are nobody to f**** with, they will garnish your checks, house and everything, no questions asked, no mercy shown. They will do what they feel like they have to do to get there's.).

I have to protect my assets in creative ways now. I’m thankful I have legal advice and friends that helps me jump through hula hoops and the ring of fire. I don’t know how much more financially messed up I would be today if I didn’t have them.

Some peers think I have it easy but they have no clue what I go/went through.

You’re feeling emotional, and it’s affecting your decisions. To get back to the present, try doing something that requires you to pay more attention to the present. When you’re able to focus on the present, you’ll be better able to understand what’s going on around you and act more appropriately.

I do not want the people who care about me worrying, stop talking about the emotional part so much. Go away.

Alrightly, I signed up for two martial arts, and I’m gonna be streetfighter ready when it’s all said and done. I’m a person, not a sex object; tired of the unwanted touching, kisses, by some of the guys I’ve attempted to work with. The things I have to do as a woman to protect myself in the entertainment industry and to feel safe on a daily basis is ridiculous. That focuses me on the present, martial arts and fitness competitions.

Angel number 555 shows up if you’ve been having difficulty managing your emotions. You may have recently had a disagreement with someone or felt like they were out of line, but they probably didn’t intend to hurt your feelings. The angels are telling you that everyone makes mistakes and they could use a little understanding when they’re in the wrong.

Um, if you haven’t noticed, in recent years, been standing up for myself a tad bit more. Mom suggested I needed to become a b***** because some family members and people out here will take advantage, and have taken advantage when I haven’t done so. Some of these people did intent harm and want/wanted to hurt my feelings. And they did the shit on purpose just to see how much I could take. Everyone down here is not good and pure. (Please see the part on the mean girls from school and my organizations.) I accept people for who they are and what they do. Instead of always looking for the good in people, sometimes you need to see what they show you. Just take my word for it for shit’s sake. (Repeating this for the second time).

If you have Angel number 555 appear in front of you, it means there is a need for much more compassion in your life. If you don’t find more compassion for yourself and others, then negativity will overwhelm every area of your life. Find someone who needs compassion and give it generously in order to change the negative energy that has taken over your life.

Sorry, I do beat my own ass when I hit the gym, and it landed me in the top 10 in my first ever fitness competition. Did not expect to last that long. I’m hard on myself in certain areas and it’s had surprising benefits. When it comes to exercise, I take after Vegeta and Jiren. I’m compassionate like the next person, but I will not be a doormat. Everyone has their down days, I’m no exception (friends passing away does hurt) but I don’t stay there, yo.

I’ll find some animals and be compassionate towards them.

*I’ve been addressing the hard things and being more vocal about hard issues on my YouTube channel, this doesn’t necessarily mean negativity has taken over my life, but say what you want dears. I stayed silent long enough. I was nice for too long.

Seeing 555 is a clear sign that your guardian angel wants you to turn your thoughts to the present. Jesus died to forgive our sins and what is in the past must stay in the past. The good news is that you still have time to make things right and get back on the path God intended for you.

I’m not God or Jesus. I’m not a prophet or saint (and to this day, I find it hilarious that any church would call me a reverend). I know karate but I also know crazy. Imma let that one go and keep on reading.



Change is on the horizon. And that’s a good thing. Much of our societal conditioning tells us that change is bad. So much so that I find so many people I work with tell me that one of their biggest fears is change.

Change is amazing.

It is.

Change is what brings you from your human self to your highest self. It’s what raises your vibration and makes you completely untouchable. And when you see this angel number, know that change is asking you to call it in. Take action and begin to walk the path that the Universe is laying out in front of you.

No kids or husband tho. For 555’s stake, I’ll consider politics, overcoming my fear of heights, hermithood, or cleaning elephant butts at the zoo before I walk down any aisle. Lord give me strength.


666 isn’t bad I promise.

Angel number 666 is a sign of love and devotion. Your angels are telling you that you need to connect with the divine feminine energy. This means you should listen to what your heart is telling you, and not always follow your head.

No. The last time I followed my heart it lead to cruel and devastating consequences. No thank you.

Doing this will help lead to true love, which can be a challenge for many people.


This is why knowing what angel number 666 represents is important as it encourages you to open up your heart chakra in order to receive love from the spiritual world as well as from those around you.

If the angel number 6 appeared in your life, it’s time for you to make a conscious effort of opening up more to others and being more open-minded about relationships. You’ll begin to notice that a lot of good things will come into your life once you start doing this.

No. I’ll open up to a cousin or trusted friend when the time comes.

(It’s cute for others but not for me, and I don’t project. Just because they are happy in their relationships doesn’t mean that will be the same deal for me. If I change my mind, ok, but I don’t want to get into a relationship because it’s trending, a status symbol or it’s what everyone else is doing. Right now I’m not interested, and none of these angel messages is gonna change my mind. If I change my mind about kids, I have a list of sperm donors lined up. I have more of a mothering instinct towards animals anyways. If I could I would get good at one night stands but I get too attached so it’s not for me. Jk jk. Or am I? I plan on using that line in a comedy standup, so I’m testing it here.).

The angels are counting on this as they want your love life and professional life to become more enriched once again with all their blessings!

Professional life is splendid. Thanks angels.

The qualities of the number six that make it so mystical is its ability to overcome the barriers between the material world and the spiritual world. These barriers are represented by a lower frequency vibration — the number five, and higher frequency vibration — the number seven.

In order to transcend these lower and higher frequencies, a person must seek balance. The number 666 can achieve this balance by placing equal value on all things.

Something recently happened in your life that has put you back on a spiritual path. You are open to the idea of letting God guide you in the right direction.

Seeing angel number 666 was a wake up call. What you’ve been trying to accomplish on your own has not been working as you had hoped.

But that’s life. Shit happens.

From now on, it will be a reminder that even though you have made mistakes in the past.

My biggest mistakes are college (more on that above and below), opening up to the wrong people and telling them how much the deaths in my life was hurting me to end up getting shown the door for it, anddddd not realizing sooner that animals are better than people. And trusting others advice and opinions when I should have listened to my own.

Your Financial Mistakes Will Be Forgiven

This one I have to see to believe. Sallie Mae is a b****

Angel number 666 may appear if you have been thinking about the past and wondering if you are on the right path. You have had to pass on many opportunities over the last few years because you refused to take advantage of others. Now, you wonder what your life might have been like if you had made different choices.

Deep. For reals. And very accurate, and too revealing.

I’ve also come to terms and made peace with the idea that I won’t experience somethings in this life. I’m ok with it.

  • If I ever have some needs that need to be met, send good vibes that I find the best vibrator that money can buy on the market. Even if I wanted to be a slut, don’t think I would make a great one, because an unexpected pregnancy puts the fear of God in me more than anything else. (With this paragraph I’m purposely rebelling again my religion lol, and I’m also going to put that line in a comedy stand up, brace yourselves). I’m not gonna bring a new life into the world when I know that everything will start, begin and end with me. Financially I will/would be on my own despite what anyone says. You can disagree if you want to and if you had different life experiences great. Most of the time when I had someone outside myself say they would care for me, it led to bad bad bad devilish things. I know what I’m comfortable with, and I’m at the point where I won’t deal with anything I don’t have to. No marriage no kids no more problems (I should stop problems while I’m ahead). Not necessarily no problems, but it will be just me.

**I expect no one to unconditionally care for me when I get older, that what caregiving services and nursing homes are for. Or a city dumpster, which ever one works best. I’m down with a cave like the cave women and men did in cavemen era.

I do have an infection that’s making it hard for me to hear out of one ear. I feel like I’m swimming underwater. I fear that I will have to let down my plans and my people again for a couple of things coming up. I’m not excited about a potential surgery.

Seeing 666 could be a message from your guardian angel about your desires for wealth. This message usually appears if you have been thinking about how your life might change if you lived in a different place or drove a different car.

I did become successful in a business, only to get sick again, working my way back on solo terms. Don’t tell no body.

You know deep in your heart that money won’t buy happiness, but it still might be nice to have a little extra at the end of the month. You work hard, but no matter how hard you try it seems impossible to get ahead.

Yeah, I followed the advice of people in my family, especially when I was younger, that hard work pays off. The older I got and the more experiences I had in school, the more I realized it’s of who you are and who you know. Sometimes popularity contests and politics play a role. Sometimes you get good grades or a pass because mom or dad is rich. Or you slept with the professor or sucked up to him or her. I learned that just because you are successful in school doesn’t mean you are successful in life. I’m not suggesting get straight Fs, but I started looking into working smart. I know people that have 4 jobs and are still struggling financially, and dropouts who are multi-millionaires. Success isn’t as black and white like I was taught growing up.

Furthermore, I was insane to believe the info I was told at face value. Sure it was the information I was given at the time. But now that I’m aware, I’ve made adjustments.

Lately you’ve been thinking about a certain person in your life that does not work as hard as you do, yet receives more of God’s blessings. Angel number 666 is a message from God that He sees your hard work and will always be by your side.

Well, some people are born into wealth, and in other articles I’ve written, I’ve clearly stated that I don’t hate on others that have advantages I don’t. I just work to make things work out in my favor. Some people start at different places, and I can’t compare my chapter 1 to someone’s chapter 22.

Your reward will be waiting for you in heaven.

Alrighty then. Take me to heaven in 100 years. I wish I could go for a day to talk with all the people that passed away in my life in recent years to make sure they are ok. And there was a lot in 2020 and 2021. Let me know you’re ok until I get up there please? It’s difficult knowing I can’t check in on you.

Hebrews 13:5 says “Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, ‘I will never leave you nor forsake you.’”

Plenty of people left when it got tough, so you ain’t the only one God that left, my love. Continue.

Angel number 666 is a simple reminder to be content with what you have.

Ok, I’ll find more animals to love on and rescue.

When you see angel number 666, God is sending a message that your debts will be forgiven.

This one I got to see lol.

Your mind is calm and your imagination is unlimited; therefore, you are able to create or develop just about anything that you can conceive of mentally.

At times, your eagerness may cause you trouble because it sets high goals for your activities that are sometimes unrealistic. But if you can curb your enthusiasm in the beginning stages of a project, there is no telling how great of an achievement it will become.

My high standards allowed me to experience some cool things. It comes with risks but I’m going to keep my high as hell standards.

You are a hard worker on any task at hand and have the determination and persistence to see it through until completion. You would make an excellent executive or entrepreneur since you possess the innate understanding of group dynamics and human nature necessary for leadership in business affairs.

This is good to know. APO and catholic church story: I accused me of not following through, and not coming to talk to me about issues. It’s the same thing too many jobs do when you are on the receiving end of politics: they set you up to fail, and make sure that they make the environment so hostile that you want to leave. The more I think about it, the more I realizing that they were making the shit up to keep me from being president and to keep trouble started (heard that from some very reliable sources also). I heard that the jealously and competitiveness was off the chain. Experiencing this over and over again in my years of school is the #1 reason why I don’t want to work in the rat race. It may be a great work experience, but I also could risk harassment, politics, punching in a time clock, racism, sexism, cliquish and mean people and more. Please read my why I chose entrepreneurship over a 9 to 5 job. I enjoy my freedom and don’t want to conform or answer to anyone.

Yes, I’ve had multiple business ventures and entrepreneurial adventures!

666 from email

I know that most people’s first instinct is to think of the societal assignment to what this angel number means. But I challenge you to look at it in a different light, and throw away your ideas of what it’s supposed to be.

This is a symbol of internal battle. It’s appearance will require extreme self reflection in order to put an end to the battle and vibrate in your highest reality. Most often, when you see this number, it’s connected to negative thoughts- which is why many people associated it with the devil.

666 is calling you to wrestle with those negative thoughts and put an end to them, because they don’t serve your energy or highest purpose.

I do plan on being vocal and addressing hard things.

Eye Twitching. (Right)

If your right eye jumps or twitches this is a sign that you are a very creative person. You likely have much-unused potential inside you.

I prefer capacity. There was a lot of times when I was told no or didn’t get voted into positions due to politics and popularity contests. I was told later by some that people are super jealous and didn’t want to see me do better than them. And simply they didnt want a black president. This is when I realized I needed to hang out with people who were more successful than me (or people who are super secure in themselves), because they are not worried about me out doing them because they have their own and not worried about mine.

This could be a sign that you need to share your dream with the world, rather than keeping it a secret.

Nah, I learned that early in the process it’s best to keep it to myself. It’s ok to send positive energy in the world, but I find it’s best to keep projects to yourself until the release date/have your shit together. The last thing you want is to talk about something then not be able to follow through on it.

When you feel like you aren’t making progress towards your goals, remember that God has a plan for you.

You have come to learn that knowledge is power. Sadly, this power can be used for both good and evil. So you are careful when sharing your ideas with people not in your inner circle of friends.

Yep, another reason why you don’t share your ideas before you do the right things to protect them. Just keeping it real with ya.

Armed with your vast knowledge, it makes wonder how so many unqualified people are given opportunities before you.

If only you were given more responsibility, you might be able to change the world for the better. However, most people don’t think the same way you do.

Other people around you are trying to take less responsibility, not more.

Well, for the 400th time, some people are born into wealth, and in other articles I’ve written, I’ve clearly stated that I don’t hate on others that have advantages I don’t. I just work to make things work out in my favor.

If your right eye jumps or twitches this is a sign that you are a very creative person. You likely have much-unused potential inside you.

We went over this already.


No matter what you do, you can’t seem to forgive or forget someone from your past.

Their words or actions caused you so much pain, that you are not ready to move on. Forgiveness doesn’t seem like an option.

YES. This shit.

You know it’s bad when legal peeps told you that some people must have been so jealous of you that they went out of their way to destroy you. Some people went so far that they don’t deserve forgiveness, and people can take that how they want. My version is wishing them well and keeping my distance. I’m kind but I’m not a saint. There’s a couple of articles out there justifying my position on why some people don’t deserve forgiveness and I appreciate them for existing. (I’ve had several responses to this question at this point, hopefully by now you know where I stand).

The Bible reminds us that left eye jumping is a sign that we are behaving unacceptably: “Whoever winks with their eye is plotting perversity; whoever purses their lips is bent on evil” (Proverbs 16:30 NIV).

Oh you don’t like my bad girl side? Whoops, expect more of it.

Your thoughts about the past are causing you to act stubborn, or difficult. At the moment you are unwilling to forgive others for the pain they’ve caused you.

Eye twitching might be a reminder to have an open heart and stop feeling resentful towards those that have hurt you.

Consider saying a prayer for those that have wronged you and let God take matters into his own hands.

Whatever. I already said what I said above.

This is difficult for you to deal with since you spend so much of your time and energy trying to help others instead of yourself.

You might even wonder how your life might be different if you had focused more on yourself instead of sacrificing for those you love.

Many times throughout your life you’ve passed on financial opportunities and given them to someone more deserving.

So when someone makes a hurtful comment about you, it really stings. They don’t realize that you spend so much time thinking positive thoughts about other people.

I’ve realized that just because you think good of others doesn’t mean they will think good of you. Just because you put energy into helping others doesn’t mean they will do the same for you. (And again, I’m not looking for anything in return, but it would be nice if people didn’t bite the hand that fed them at least). Just because you have good intentions doesn’t mean everyone around you does. People will continue to talk shit behind my back and I don’t worry about it. I cannot worry about what most people think, and I only value their opinion if it’s a close trusted source. There’s people out here waiting to tear you down, and you just got to have tough skin and Teflon. If they can’t/don’t have the balls to come say it to me; or can’t come to me and address issues like an adult, that has everything to do with them and nothing to do with me.

Being vulnerable definitely cost me. And no one will ever understand the extend of it because I don’t whine and complain.

Don’t you worry, I’m spending more times nowadays being more selfish, trust me. Not saying that I won’t look out for others (because I still do).

Not saying I won’t put others happiness before myself anymore. But nowadays I’m a little more selfish and a little less giving. I’m careful who I show my vulnerable and giving side to. In romantic relationships, apparently, you are supposed to think about the other person first. Due to my experiences, more in likely, I will continue to put the oxygen mask on myself first then help others when my needs are met first.

All roads stop here. I don’t want a predictable life where I fall into a routine.

I found out some organizations I did so much for ended up talking shit behind my back when I ran for president. I keep telling people, I don’t do things for credit, recognition or fame. But if people cannot be forthcoming and honest with me directly, and can’t even have an honest and respectful conversation; and instead choose to gossip and sabotage, that’s a space I no longer need to be in. I will take myself and resources elsewhere. And give my energy and time other people that are kinder, and not use me for their own purposes; instead of running when things get awkward or tough, we can have the hard, tough conversations.


Seeing 1010 means you are a very independent person. This is a sign that you have spent much time searching for your purpose in life.

You like to take the road less traveled, even if it means less financial success or personal recognition. You wonder what your life might be like if you had followed the crowd like so many others, but you don’t have regrets.

I definitely take the road less traveled.

Angel number 1010 could be a message from your guardian angel confirming that you are on the right path. Do not change your behavoir or actions just to please others or fit in with the crowd.

I won’t. Some family is trying to pressure me to take a normal job because it makes them more feel comfortable and it’s more “stable.” They want to have a conversation starter with their friends. Anything outside physical labor, 401ks, is not seen or respected as a normal job. I won’t mend to their scoffing. It’s gonna go in one ear and out the other. Working like they work won’t necessarily get me where I want to be or lead me to my purpose. I’m an outcast, and I’m going to stay the course, no matter how challenging it is.

Your spiritual journey has been lonely, but you continue to have faith in God. Seeing angel number 1010 is a sign that God is watching over you.

You believe in God but he doesn’t speak directly to you like he does with others. However, you may have had spiritual experiences that were caused by angels in your life.

Being the only child growing up, and having different goals and perspectives than my peers, I don’t mind being on my own. I like solitude.

He doesn’t speak to me like he does other people. But favor. They say God gives his toughest battles to his toughest soldiers. Losing friends to suicide on a regular basis is hard, along with watching people from 0–30 die from things. I’ve experienced a lot of traumatizing things since turning 18, and I’m not sure why that is. I rather not go through those things to test how tough I am to be honest. (I prefer to test my toughest on Tough Mudder, A Navy Seal Obstacle course, or something like that). While people had other trusted people to go to, many turned their backs on me and I had to deal with it on my own for years, or the people were so untrustworthy you be better off selling your grim news to the tabloids. This was before I found my people. Favor, just put trusted people in my life that will be there for the highs of highs and the lowest of the lows. And won’t run at the first sign of blood. When Acshettle and Steve Bello gets busy, I just want a listening ear. I don’t need the entire world, just a few trusted peeps.

Do not turn your back on Him now.

I haven’t, but the Catholic church is another story. I spend time in nature meditating with animals. I cannot front appearances and try to force a connection that’s no longer there, I don’t know if I’ll ever connect like I once did. My priest at the time let the daughter of a wealthy man ruin the school, and create a toxic school culture, with teachers backstabbing each other, and all because he was more concerned about money and Pacers’ tickets. He allowed this lady to undermine the principle, and it got to the point where teachers were going to this lady taking orders instead of going to the principle. He looked the other way when racism amongst the teachers and students happened, and were heavily discriminatory against my mom for being a single parent. The middle school teachers at the time plotted and took away a scholarship that was supposed to go to me at my 8th grade graduation out of spite, and the priest sat back and did nothing. I saw too many Catholics do very mean and cruel things. The hypocrisy, the gossipy and excluding nature of one too many of them turned me off. I really did try to get involved as a retreat leader. The high went away after the retreats were over, and some people crossed the street and pretended they didn’t know who I was after the retreats. Enough of that. You expect that shit in the world but you can’t even feel at home in church? I pull up Mass on Youtube at this point. And keep my wallet at home, because most of them churches and organized religions are only interested in your money. And are usually great at being unavailable when you need help. Or worst, putting you through so many humiliating and dehumanizing changes when you ask for help that it’s not worth even being bothered with.

I’m not a fan of organized religion at this time. I’m in a rebellious keeping my distance stage right now.

Religions are man-made to strike fear into people who feel they have no direction in life.-Steve Bello


Angel number 1111 truly represents mastery: mastery of self and awareness of our spiritual connection.

Angel number 1111 brings great challenges, but also great opportunity. It has a magnetic energy that draws to it other like-minded souls who are here to change the world.

I have to admit my connection with animals have been deeper lately (the 4 legged ones, I want to make that clear).

This number enables individuals to see at a deeper level than most people because they are wise and spiritual. They may be here as leaders or teachers. They will make great strides in the understanding of spirituality and humanity during their time here on earth.

People with this vibration can tend to be attracted to organizations that involve such things as ritual, new age philosophy or metaphysics. Angel number 1111 often appears for those that are interested in a career that involves creativity, skill with words, technology or anything else that requires some element of change or transformation.

In relationships these people are usually drawn to those who are interested in ancient studies, metaphysics or religious beliefs. They often attract friends who have high ideals and are spiritually minded and may even become involved in relationships based on common interests.

I think the more I think about it, being a sage or hermit might not be such a bad idea for me….Or a lightworker. I’ve repeated this…

You are often confused about how some people can appear to be successful, yet make such simple mistakes.

I don’t hate the player or the game. Some people get breaks that others don’t have.

Well, that’s because the accomplishments you’ve achieved so far have come from hard work and determination. You were not born with a silver spoon in your mouth or handed opportunities like so many others.

I don’t care if others have advantages that I don’t. See above comments for more details.

For this reason, it’s no secret that your close friends and family know that you set very high standards for yourself and others.

Angel number 1111 could be a wakeup call to stop being so hard on yourself and turn your attention toward God (Peter 5:7).

Sorry, being hard on myself got me places I haven’t been. Continue.

On the other hand, if you feel like your prayers are going unanswered, seeing 1111 is a strong message to put your faith in God.

Angel number 1111 is most often seen by those who are dealing with financial or relationship problems in their life and are unsure where to turn for help (Psalm 91:15).

If you have been trying to fix these problems on your own, with no success, it is time to take a different approach.

Shit happens though. It’s a part of life.

Your guardian angel is sending you a reminder that everything is going to plan and that you must be patient.

3. Someone in Heaven is Watching Over You

Good, because a lot of people on earth have not (except my mom, a few friends and my granny-rip)

For example, if you are feeling discouraged, this could be a sign that someone in heaven wants you to keep your chin up. Remember that your time on earth is only temporary and your reward will be delivered in heaven.

Thank goodness. I would go to space to escape Earth, but I’m deathly afraid of heights. The older I get, the more I’m happy that my time on earth is temporary. Continue.

I hope my sins of borrowing food will be forgiven.

This is a sign that things will get better.

It is very likely that a loved one in heaven has seen what is on the other side and is trying to send you good news.

I’m in hell on earth and can’t wait to get to the other side to see everyone again, no one has complained about the other side. Every person that has had a near death experience wants to go back. Gimme like 100 years or so. Or help me get over my fear of heights so I can go to space. I would like to celebrate my 121st birthday.

Not only will you eventually be reunited with this person in heaven, but much more awaits you.

I hope to unite everyone I ever lost in heaven (but if one more guy touches me inappropriately, please turn your heads as I defend myself accordingly). I do write you letters.

I’ve seen dimes, butterflies, red cardinals, and I see you in my dreams!

The angels are telling you that this is the perfect time to start a new project or business, because the world needs what you have to offer as well as your personal talents and gifts. Be sure to take advantage of this opportunity.

I’ve started several projects, yayy for this.

1111 is offering you an opportunity to expand your brand, increase profits and reach a larger audience of interested customers.

You may have seen other numbers such as 333 and 444 attached to this number. This is true! These numbers all refer to angels! Each angel has his or her own unique message for you, so pay attention when you see these repeating numbers in your life.

The angels want you to be aware of your inner strength and confidence! This means you can easily overcome any obstacles that arise on your path toward achieving your goals. The angels are letting you know that you are more powerful than you think!

In numerology, the number 1111 is linked to the angels of love. When you experience this number, it means that a new love for you is coming soon. It could be a romantic relationship, or you may find a soulmate through your work or hobbies.

I did meet a goat and a chicken that I have an current entanglement with. (Since the angels don’t get the memo that I want to be by myself for a bit and perhaps for life, now I’m going to pull out the jokes).

This is also a time when you might have to make some important choices and decisions regarding your relationships with other people. If you are single and looking for love, this number will be an indication that your search will soon come to an end.

The search has come to an end. The goat said yes when I asked it out on a date.

If you see the repeating numeric pattern 1111 in your life, it means that angels are sending you divine messages in order to help you learn lessons of life and improve yourself as a person.

This number indicates that there is more to this world than what meets the eye, and there are spiritual planes which have been created by God for us to explore. The angels want us to recover our spiritual powers so we can reach these planes before we die.

Okie dokes, I’ll go sit in a forest with my hands up in the air.

The 1111 number is a sign from God that everything in your life will be okay, so don’t worry about anything.

I did get some lawsuits dismissed a while back 2015. Sitting around on that and singing would have resulted in an default judgement which could have led to even more financial ruin that would have been harder to get out of, sooooo…putting my hands together in a prayer stance would not made that go away, you have to do things to make it go away.

The number 111 in numerology is of a very spiritual nature. It has been seen as an inspirational number, and is often associated with the arts. A person with this number is a creative soul, and will be drawn to the arts.

This person does have an idealistic side, and can be very emotional. When he or she loves, they will do so passionately. Their need to feel loved will be great.

Being loved by my dog, that billy goat, my cats, and the squirrels is wonderful.

This person may have refined tastes when it comes to clothing or decorating his or her home; the number 1111 likes things of high quality.

My standards are pretty high when it comes to dating (to the point where most guys won’t be able to reach it, which is why I’m hanging with the animals nowadays). When it comes to friendships, I can almost befriend anyone and I can keep an open mind.

He or she can also be very generous, giving to others freely without any thought of getting anything in return.

This is very true.

The ability to communicate with others on an intimate level is important for people who have this number; they need to feel close to those around them in order to function properly.

I talk intimately with the squirrels and the possums late at night. We get really deep and close. We look into each others’ eyes and let the stars shine brightly under the moonlight. It’s romantic.

People who have the life path of 1111 find that their life purpose is “to create”; they love being involved in projects where they can use their creativity (this includes both artistic projects as well as practical ones)

The angel number 1111 is first of all a reminder of the sacred connection between you and the angelic realm. Learn to trust your intuition and listen to what your angels have to say.

They want to guide you in a positive direction — they want to show you the path towards happiness, abundance and fulfillment. Trust that inner voice inside of you, it’s there for a reason.

I do hear people talking to me. I don’t want people thinking I’m off my rocker, so imma keep that to myself.

Your angels are always with you, guiding you in spirit. Let them lead the way so that success, love and joy can flow into your life.

Angel number 1111 is a good sign that your angel guides and the guardian angel are sending you love and peace. They always send you positive signs because they want to make sure that you are on the right track. It is very important to pay attention to their messages since this could be a reflection of your current situation.

The highest vibration angel number 1111 will help you find inner peace, harmony, and happiness. It will also give you confidence in your life and encourage you to move forward with faith.

My faith in food is pretty high about right now. That’s the only thing my faith is in. Food. Not people.

11:11 (eleven eleven) represents completeness because two digits form one complete unit. This number is also a sign of activating your intuitive abilities to see beyond your present circumstances into what could be possible in your future.

I see images in my head of me being so wealthy.

I see it while still maintaining my hermit lifestyle. Please. I expect no one to unconditionally care for me when I get older, that what caregiving services and nursing homes are for (they don’t care either, but it’s better than being out in the street right?). I will set the things in place now and put a guardian in place when I need. Acshettle and Steve Bello will definitely outlive me. I messaged some other childfree women, we plan on escaping and pulling all kinds of pranks on people, watch for us on the news in 2077. 🤣

I also expect people to try to rip me off, so I will have someone like Frank & Craft look over things. Miscellaneous charges are “she has a lot of money charges and won’t notice 10,000 here and there.” Cmom now.

It also means you have strong intuition, psychic awareness, are sensitive to others, understand people well, possess spiritual wisdom, and have a high level of self-love which will help you lead a meaningful life.

My level of self love is extremely high. Thanks for noticing.

Definitely gonna tap into my psychic abilities more just like Ness. I think my disappearing act can give everyone a run for their money though.


If angel number 1212 enters your life, it will certainly bring peace and love to you. You will be able to realize how much someone may be important in your life.

There is probably a person who has always been there for you and who gave you support in every difficult situation. Your angels will help you realize that and appreciate more this person.

Romantically NO WAY.

Friend wise? Definitely Acshettle

Not all people around you deserve your love and care and you have to know that.

The best thing you’ve said all day.

We have already said that seeing angel numbers can be a very important sign in your life. Angel number 1212 is not an exception. If you look carefully around you and if you notice this number, you can be sure that the things will be much better in the future.

Many positive changes will take place in your life and you have to be prepared for them.

Seeing angel number 1212 means that you are going to start the new phase in your life soon. Angels have decided to give you new opportunities and to eliminate all negative things from your life. If you have worked hard recently, now it is time to be rewarded for it.

You angels will bring many good things into your life and you need to accept them.

No romance please. Access denied.

Wealth and solidarity life style? Absolutely. Bring it.

According to numerology, seeing 1212 is symbolic of unity, virtue or purity, and love.

(Please don’t start with the purity crap. This article is too long already for me to start a fight on the purity church culture.)

Seeing angel number 1212 is a very positive sign if you are looking for love. This is a message from your guardian angel that you are about to receive an abundance of love in your life. Love may come in many forms but there are a few things you can start looking for.

First, you may start receiving love signs from a new person like a friend, coworker, or crush. When you see 12:12 on the clock, look around the room and notice your surroundings. Your next love interest might be in the same room.

Hopefully a friend or cousin. I will put my phone on airplane mode if an ex from my past hits me up. Please leave me alone. I’m at a place where solitude is everything to me, where no one is messaging me any booty calls or harassing messages, and I want it to stay that way. Getting dozens of messages from romantic hungry guys is something I don’t find thrilling. Some women like attention from guys but I’m not one of them. I build my confidence through other things. Please for the love of all things, do not wish that for me. Silence is truly golden.

I’ve had 0 d*** pics, no cat calls, and no harassment by men in a long while (My longest streak ever). Please let me live in peace.

Next, this could be a sign that you will find love again from a past or current relationship. Angel number 1212 is often seen right before a past love interest reappears in your life. Be on the watch for signs from your previous relationships that the spark is still there.

Omg no. That would be a nightmare. I have moved on from them and I wish the same for them. Ideally, I would love to be friends with people, but they will always have a romantic intentions so I keep my distance.

However, certain events in your life have made wonder if God actually hears your prayers. Seeing 1212 tells me that you have been questioning your faith lately.

Sometimes I don’t think so. He hears others prayers but not mine. I still love ya God tho, and yes.

The 1212 angel number is a sign from your guardian angel to remain faithful even when God is silent.

I can definitely confirm God has been silent, I still got love. All good. Used to being on my own anyways.

You tend to keep people at arms’ length because you have been hurt in the past. When you let someone into life, you are trusting them with your deepest thoughts and feelings. This is not something you take lightly.



Yes. I do not take this lightly and I take it very seriously. Loyalty and trust means the world to me. Definitely in the arm’s length club.

It takes time for you to accept someone into your ‘inner circle’ of friends where you feel comfortable opening up and being vulnerable. You constantly struggle with making real connections with others, but you are open to new friendships.

This is a fact. I stay on the outside of life a lot and that’s ok with me. As long as connecting with others doesn’t put me in a homeless shelter, financial ruin, or on a blacklist of a financial institution, I’ll think about it. If I don’t deem it safe I’m out of there.

Seeing 1212 is a sign that you should let more people get to know the “real” you.

This is the truth on so many levels. Truer words haven’t been spoken this whole time.

I’m still going to proceed with caution. Being vulnerable put me in a bad way.

It’s clear that God is trying to send a message about faith and relationships. If you have been seeing angel number 1212, this could be a sign that you’ve been dealing with relationship problems.

Thanks for the reveal. Appreciate it.

Take a moment and think about the relationship you have with your family, spouse or friends. Have things been more difficult than normal?

Yes. Several relationships in my family have been strained and I’ve been told I will not conform and I’ve turned into a bad girl. Fact. 🔥 To protect myself I’ve distracted myself.

Here’s the August Messages From My Emails That Stood Out To Me The Most:

(I’m starting to get annoyed at the romance bit lowkey. )

If you’ve been feeling called to retreat into hermit mode, (I have, do not tell anyone about my plans, I’m going to keep in touch with some people but disappear off the face of the earth).

Alesha, this is the fastest way to becoming cold-hearted and closed off to your natural divine right to love and abundance.

(I know of a lot of single millionaires and multi-millionaires and I’m following their lead. In a relationship pushy world, I have to half way ignore these messages. I will get in a relationship if I want to, but I don’t want to now or for the next 100 years, thanks for your understanding.)

Is here to remind you that you did the best with what you could do with the knowledge that you had at that time.

Yeah, I followed the advice of people in my family, especially when I was younger, that hard work pays off. The older I got and the more experiences I had in school, the more I realized it’s of who you are and who you know. Sometimes popularity contests and politics play a role. Sometimes you get good grades or a pass because mom or dad is rich. OR you are connected to someone wealthy. Or you slept with the professor or sucked up to him or her. I learned that just because you are successful in school doesn’t guarantee/mean you are automatically successful in life. I’m not suggesting get straight Fs, but I started looking into working smart after one too many bad experiences in school, there has to be a better way to financial stability. Get the straight A’s and the degrees if it aligns with your higher values, not because everyone around you wants you to do it. There was a period in my life where I did get straight A’s, but I stopped focusing on being perfect because life isn’t perfect. Sometimes you can do everything right (grade school, high school, college, etc), and still get fired from a job because of things that are out of your control (economy, someone doesn’t like you, politics, racism, mind games, etc). I know people that have 4 jobs and are still struggling financially, and dropouts who are multi-millionaires by building businesses that work on autopilot, and they don’t have to lift a finger. Sometimes you don’t have to struggle and work hard if you were born into a wealthy family or find successful ventures. Sometimes you don’t have to pay your dues and struggle like others before you. Success isn’t as black and white like I was taught growing up. I’m not angry at my family, because they are just teaching you what they know and they cannot teach you what they don’t know. I’ve seen and learned different.

Now is the time to take stock of what’s happening behind the scenes in your life and allow yourself to get vulnerable. It’s one of the best ways to heal old pain and disconnection.

With a safe person, sure. My #1 weakness is being vulnerable. The cost was too high and it cost me everything.

P.S. You never get over the death of loved ones, especially if you lost them in traumatic ways. You learn to live with it.

Alesha, sometimes we pretend all is well when it isn’t. We pretend we aren’t upset or disappointed when we are.

You’re revealing too much.

indicates that although your inner resources may feel exhausted, there is inner strength you can tap into when it is most needed.

Definitely drained, but I work through it.

You have ‘grit’, Alesha, and you are divinely connected! You are resilient!


If you have been overwhelmed with doubt, worry, despair or anxiety, this card comes to you now to remind you that you can find the strength to achieve what seems impossible.

Confronted with a crisis, Alesha, we are often able to access this special strength. It is the kind of strength that we do not know we possess until we actually need it.

Such reserves of energy can come in handy, not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.

When we feel like we are at the end of our rope, Alesha, the fighting warrior spirit of the Nine of Wands becomes invaluable.

It tells of the ability to defend what has been gained and implies that stability is gained through hard and diligent work.

I am receiving a message that it’s time to stop numbing yourself and escaping from your reality right now…

Go away.

“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.”- C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed

Fear or feelings like fear are a normal by product of grief.

Work on restoring your sense of self-confidence and power.

Focus on the strength that you’ve relied on through your life to overcome certain obstacles.

When I’m experiencing grief, I start fearing things and take a hit in confidence. I’ve noticed this over the years.

If you’ve been feeling called to retreat into hermit mode.

P.S. I did let love in, when I got the approval to take a goat out on a date.

I’ve been seeing all kinds of signs.

8.16. 2021: Butterfly

8.20.2021. Saw a butterfly

8.22.2021: Saw a butterfly

I think it was my grandpa, I wrote a letter to him in this article, then saw the butterfly the next day. We are both nature freaks.

Dimes and pennies are a big one.

I see red cardinals often, I’m thinking about you too!

I have lights flickering on a weekly basis.

Please do not appear to me before I had the chance to go pee or in dark places.

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