Excellent, and I haven't made it through the whole thing yet. I found throughout my life I have/had different goals, dreams and aspirations. Because of this I was always on a different wavelength than my peers and very misunderstood (some of my successes today is making it full circle to my past circles). Sometimes my ideas and goals resulted in clashes with people and not being as close. Nowadays, being the only child, I rather be by myself than with toxic company. I do have my friends, but it takes me a while to trust people. Off record, being alone is better than being around friends who isn't really friends, who gossip behind your back and isn't there when you need them. My solitude didn't cause the biggest hurts. My biggest hurts came when people in my life passed away, and so called friends checked in on everyone else but me. Or when I wasn't comfortable opening up, and they get resentful instead of meeting me where I was at. People throughout my life wanted me to open up to them, but they were not safe to open up to. Feeling safe and protected in someone's energy is a different kind of safety (i.e. if I tell you something, you will not gossip or tell someone to gain favor, and I've had that happen too many times). I do not mind taking a lone wolf season until I find people on my same page. Anywho, thanks for writing this.