My Kierkegaardian Moment Of Truth

Alesha Peterson
4 min readApr 28, 2024
Till Daling

I found my purpose when I got millions of views on YouTube, my Spotify grew 700,000% and I kept seeing angel numbers along the way. How I am got me here.

That is an absolutely vital word right there, by the way: Decision. It’s the secret to all of free will. Realizing that you have a choice, now and always. Even when you don’t have one because of the most dire circumstances, you still have a choice in how you react to the situation. No one can ever control your mind.

If you read my stories, my life hasn’t been easy. Watching people pass away for years has been difficult. Listening to well intentioned advice and realizing that advice put me on a path that was no longer me.

Self Epiphanies

People trying to get me to date guys that’s not for me. Or trying to get me to become a mom even though I don’t want to. (Team child free over here, I crave my quiet time, and the article just admits it…

While having a baby is amazing, it also comes with a slew of life-altering side effects like a serious lack of “me” time and perpetual need for a nap.

Being a mom is an eternal occupation. Last but not least, being a mom is hard because it’s a permanent job. You can not just drop and quit even if you feel like giving up.

See my other child free articles for details. And I don’t want an around the clock job. )

I’m going to stick to my intuition here, because listening to all the garbage advice before was well intentioned, but not me.

Like: The school wasn’t what I thought it was. A-ha! I can write again if I want to. A-ha! I can be successful with Youtube. A-ha! I can create grown and sexy music to push myself outside my comfort zone and grow as an artist for me. I can’t worry about or control what others do with themselves. The world is mine — and my life is not over or predetermined in my twenties. A-ha, a-ha, a-ha!

Intensely activated

But then a breakthrough occurred when I kept seeing angel numbers, and watching all this success go down with my social media. Millions of views on Youtube, millions on Medium, thousands of claps later, I can say things are real cool and my visions.

It’s would have been scary if I listened to both well meaning and jealous friends..

(And despite family members still trying to get me to work a 9 to 5, I think I’m going to stick to the Youtube/acting/music thing.)

Yes, watching my loved ones pass away still hurts. Life isn’t always easy. But I get signs that that the path I’m choosing is for me. (And I’m picking happiness for myself, despite what that looks like to other people).

The physical act of writing has a strange way of manifesting magic into reality.

As the world began to open up to me, I started snatching dreams and desires mid-thought and capturing them before they drifted away into doubt and nothingness.

There’s a lot of jealousy out here, but you still do you anyways.

To finish off, not everyone is gonna be happy for you. Some people only get a taste of success by taking a bite out of you, and some people never escape the jealous mindset at all. If you read enough of my stories, I ran into so many people that loved backstabbing, cutting, and gossiping about others to move themselves up. It was ridiculous. I’m not the jealous type, and I can pick up on jealous behaviors right away. There’s a lot of jealousy out here, but you still do you anyways. And just know there’s people out here that have your back and that is on your wavelength, but you have to find them. It may take time, but it’s worth it.

Since I’m rapping in Spanish nowadays, I’ll write out the Spanish and English versions.

A la genta no siempre le gustas

The physical act of just not overthinking, just going for it, not knowing how it’s gonna work out or how the dots are gonna connect, and finding my purpose(s). And realizing that everyone won’t be happy for you, but you do have people on your wavelength that genuinely support you. This had a strange way of manifesting magic for me.

It’s 2022 at the time of this writing, but by the time you read it, it will be 2024. I had to write a ton of content ahead of time to stay consistent despite what’s happening. 🔥🙌

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