Year Of Vulnerability
I got closer to some cousins as a result of this.
Directness and honesty about your thoughts and feelings will be appreciated by those closest to you, I saw this in a horoscope. And I usually don’t like to be vulnerable because being trusting of others too many times led to harsh consequences. People can’t use your vulnerabilities against you if they don’t know them. People can deeply wound you with what you share. After being deeply wounded, I’m just careful.
Vulnerability is described as a kind of sword that you freely give to someone else. It’s practically giving another person an opportunity to deeply wound you with what you share. I’ve learned everyone is not safe or trustworthy, and it’s good to be choosy. It’s good to be choosy about who you share things with. It’s like the saying — “don’t cast your pearls before swine.” Just because you can always share, doesn’t mean you always should. It’s good to be choosy. And I’m very choosy (people can make up lies though.)
Brief History
I don’t let my guard down so easy because I also don’t have enough experiences telling me that I’ll be safe if I do. It’s interesting because this world sends a lot of mixed messages. They say you should be independent and take care of yourself, but then when you get to that point, they then tell you to pull back a little bit, let someone in to potentially hurt you? Not so fast. (Same to you, 222, no.)
Seeing 222 is a message about love. This could be a sign that you’ve had your heart broken in the past.
The pain you felt after a breakup was so bad that now you are more protective of who you let into your heart.
When around your friends or family you are very social, easy to talk to, and extroverted. Yet, other times you are reserved, quiet, and tired.
When you meet someone new it takes time before they become part of your “inner circle” of friends. They need to earn your trust first. You are selective of who gets to know the “real” you.
The same can be said for your romantic relationships. Your heart has been broken too many times and you cannot bear to think about going through another painful breakup.
Although you might not realize it yet, your guardian angel has been sent down to protect you and guide you in a new direction.
God made a promise to us long ago, called a covenant, that he would not harm us. Seeing 222 is a clear sign that God is about to heal your broken heart. He wants you to open your heart to love and shine your light for others.
If you are in a relationship, seeing angel numbers could be a sign of renewed love. You are about to experience a burst of new energy and deep love for your partner.
Simply put, the number 222 is a message from your guardian angel to open up your heart.
I saw even a quote on Instagram that a lady needs to spend some time alone. (I loved the quote, I’ll find it). Then I saw a comment saying that you don’t want to spend too much time by yourself because you start to think you can handle things on your own. When I read things like this, I have a tendency to ignore it. These people out here have not lived my life, and while I’m not suggesting I shut people out for years. I’ve handled things on my own and will continue to do so, I have to do what works for me, not do what this world and the people in it want me to do (remember the part where I said listening to others too many times I got misled and burned? And when I started listening to my own inner voice more it got better.)
I personally prefer to be by myself. I got a nice n cozy protective barrier (understandably) due to my experiences. Due to the fact that quite a few people were/are very toxic and self destructive at different periods, I let them go altogether. Being around them may make it more difficult to move forward by bringing up those patterns I want to break down. And after distancing my self from them, I experienced success in other areas. Sometimes, the people you are around can keep you from living the life and successes you are meant to live, and can keep you down. This is the reason why I let go of my religion, and the schools, and some people I loved. Instead of being angry and looking for the love, security and support that they can’t and aren’t willing to give (i.e. being angry at those whom you feel could not love you and protect you as a child). If you don’t need something, it doesn’t hurt when you don’t get it. If you are not looking for it, you don’t miss it. If you don’t look for validation outside yourself and it comes from within, it’s the key to true self-esteem and confidence. When you free yourself from the prison of caring of what others think, that’s true freedom. When you learn to live for yourself and not other people, that’s a vibe. It’s interesting because I’ve taken assessments and they told me I’m a giver. Here’s some key words.
You are also someone who can be unstoppable when you truly set your mind to something.
You’re also a person who values your independence…
When you insist on maintaining too much freedom, you’re actually cutting yourself off from the warmth, support, and connection others can give you. (If it comes with strings attached I’m good.)
And though you can be incredibly giving, you may have a hard time with romantic partners who are too needy or dependent. (I wish the world understood this and they don’t).
I’ve found my balance of giving, being selfish, my alone time and boundaries. Despite what the assessments say (which are spot on) I will live for myself, not other people.
You can call it my version of being tough skinned, but literally some people were so mean and toxic to be around, that I embraced being lonely in those environments. I learned happiness should not be based around a person. Ask yourself this question. What is it that makes you happy? The answer to this question should not be based around a person, notice how I say this twice. When you are on your own time and in your own space, what is it that you enjoy doing? I hate drama, gossip, and backstabbing. I’m low key, laid back and don’t like drama. And being the only child growing up, my alone time is solitude. I’m to the point now where I don’t get “lonely.”
I gave it to myself. By refuging from the pain of rejection; because some environments were toxic and cruel (take my word for it) I convinced myself and learned that in some instances, that it is better not to need acceptance and love from others at all. I didn’t even WANT to be accepted or loved by others. Other times it isn’t worth the shit. Because the price I would have to pay is too high. So I said that’s alright, and went along my merry way, until I find people on the same page.
Vulnerability is described as a kind of sword that you freely give to someone else. It’s practically giving another person an opportunity to deeply wound you with what you share. I’ve learned everyone is not safe or trustworthy, and it’s good to be choosy. It’s good to be choosy about who you share things with. It’s like the saying — “don’t cast your pearls before swine.” Just because you can always share, doesn’t mean you always should.
What I have done is starting to be more vulnerable with TRUSTED family and friends. The key is trusted.
I notice that some of my loved ones keep their inner circle small, and I don’t blame them for this. Some other family members complain that they don’t include others. I’m like they can hang out with whomever they want to. And if you got your people and your trusted group, why f**** it up? I wonder if throughout the years, if I kept my circles smaller and didn’t throw my net so wide, could that have saved me from some of the shit? I’ll never know. Wanting that sense of belonging and wanting a place to call home resulted in a lot of fun times, but risks and rejection too, catch 22 . But I do know nowadays I’m careful with my trust. Everyone is not a friend or trustworthy. Some friends I only see once a year and it’s based around an event (i.e. Gen Con,
WEEK OF February 7–1 3, 2022
Huge change is right around the corner — if you’re ready to release some control and take a few (safe) risks. Pay attention to the energy waves that roll in on Tuesday, February 8, as electrifying Uranus in your house of transitions harmonizes with impassioned Mars in your transformational sector. These are the deepest, most private areas of your chart, and to really tap the potential here, you need to bridle the monkey mind of nonstop thinking so you can tune in to your intuition. We’re not saying it’s easy, but it IS doable. Start by creating a safe and spacious arena to be alone with your own thoughts and ideas. When you clear out room, it’s easier for those divine downloads to come through. Play around with ways to mute the noise and tune out the distractions, from social media to shared work-team threads, like Slack and Voxer.
Mars needs to stay active, so build in time to move your body, whether at the gym or a streaming yoga class. Heck, dancing in your living room could become a quasi-spiritual experience if you cue up the right playlist. This is a time to go deep — like, soul-deep — but you have to be ready to get more vulnerable than you ever have before. Is there some forgiveness work to be done — or grief to process or counterproductive habits to leave in the dust? It’s a thin line separating getting past a painful chapter and simply ignoring it. You and the other person don’t have to be 100 percent aligned — just willing to agree to disagree and not secretly hold it against the other person. The main thing that’s needed is for BOTH of you to feel like you’ve been heard.
One thing to stay acutely aware of on Friday is the insidious appearance of unwanted “guests” like resentment, jealousy and possessiveness. The thing is, you may not see them coming until they arrive, larger than life! You can thank (or blame) a conjunction of messenger Mercury and penetrating Pluto in Capricorn and your eighth house of intimacy, vulnerability and very intense emotions, which may be unfamiliar to more cerebral Geminis. This is actually the third of a trio of conjunctions, thanks to Mercury’s recent retrograde from January 14 to February 3. The first two were on December 30 and January 28, and ever since then, you’ve been weighing the pros and cons of a critical decision.
Before you fall down the analysis paralysis rabbit hole, get OUT of your head and into your body, which never lies. Move, dance, spend time in nature or on your yoga mat. You want to work these dense energies OUT of your system before they fry your circuits. The “good news-bad news” here is that you may be positively blown away by the depth of your own feelings, from transcendental to the urge to control and manipulate. Don’t try to pretend this away — it won’t work AND you’ll miss out on a golden opportunity to take things to a whole new level. When it comes to romance, with Mercury and Pluto in cahoots in your erotic eighth house, your superpower might be seduction and vulnerability. And how exciting to try those on for size!
I started easing my family into it by posting on my family Facebook how losing friends to suicide and dealing with it over and over and over again adversely affect/affected my life. This was the year that our family reunion with extended family members was taking place. It happens way too much, and I’m putting it out there for the first time in years.
Because of this, I have noticed a closer bond with a few of my extended cousins, and a few more talks with my first cousins.
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